This Fading Image

Is this goodbye?  I'm looking behind me, side-stepping fate is beyond me.  A day to day sickness, I'm bleeding through the memories.  Your song haunts me.  And this is killing me.  But I remember it all, the fear lies in forgetting.  I think that you want to forget.  I don't want to forget.  You used to spend time with me.  You used to hang out with me.  You used to laugh with me, now we just cry.  A cold fog has settled around us.  I am standing on the oracle and I am screaming "Why?!?".

Grey September

I looked at you, you walked away, I wish that I had something better to say, but I don't.  I'm just standing here.  You picked your path, you made your choice. The conscience you had now lost it's voice.  I wish you were here with me. I know you're down.  I can't help you anymore, you walked away and you shut the door. I wish somehow we could settle this score, but you're gone.  So much for long goodbyes. You lost yourself somewhere else, the home you knew stands empty. You miss your friends, will they come again? They are never coming back. The fun you had is fading fast. Broken dreams are like broken glass. You cut yourself one too many times.

Intelligent Enough for Self Destruction

There is a brown man sitting on the curb.  He's got a brown bottle in his brown bag.  He is dying your red death while wearing his soiled army jacket.  There is a pale lady across the street.  Her drunk dad never gave her a choice.  Neither did the government, neither did the pimp that snatched her up.  And she is crying.  Where is Big Brother now?  If he's been watching, he's sure not helping.  Welcome to the world we've made, poison candy for us all.  Where are your morals now? You're praying, "Oh dear God please make me wealthy."  You've forgotten the needle and the eye. Convenient how we've twisted His word.  Just take a look at this monstrosity!  They call it the free world.  Take a look at every country.  Each child is a little death boy or girl.  Man's system's reek with futility! The stench has distorted our minds.  We need to change  individually.  Your false unity is no surprise.  How long will it take before you see the truth? This world is not true life! How long?

 

She Hates Me

I say nothing in so many words.  I can't stand the thought of anything right now.  And she hates everything with my name on the tag.  I'm starting to agree with her about that.  She is so empty, using anything to fill her vacant heart.  She doesn't understand that rolling won't love her tomorrow.  I think I've lost my chance to help her when she falls.  There seems to be nothing that I can do.  She needs Christ to come and fill her life instead of whatever she finds laying out on the counter.  She is so empty, using anyone to fill her empty heart.  She won't understand that this guy won't love her tomorrow.

Open my eyes

Get home at ten, go to bed again.  My heart keeps messing with my head.  Can't seem to stop the pain, can't seem to get away. You say you're fine, then drop out of line. I just wish you had more time. Do you know what you believe? Would you die for what you believe? Angels could cry as they watch us die. I just don't think I can take much more.  Open up my eyes. Let me see Your perfect plan. Help me realize that I'm not anything without You. Make me understand there's got to be a better way. Open up my eyes, because I can't see my way.  Walk down the halls, staring at the walls. No one blinks as the bodies fall.  You don't see past your little world, you don't see that everyone's the same.  Same wound, different name.  There is only one way that you'll ever change.  Can't you see there's a greater love?  There's a greater love.  Angels could cry as we live our lives.  I just don't think I can take much more.

remarkable

It's all my fault, I know that much is true because I find filth in everything I do.  I attempt to cling to what is true.  Note to self: I'm sick of you.  I try to walk on my own, even though I'm not alone.  I know I can hold my own if You would just help me up. Another day, another fall and it seems that this is the norm. Just don't ask about the rest.  Why can't I do anything that I know I should? Instead I do all the things that I despise.  Why did You die for me?  I know that I deserve Hell.  Why did You suffer for me, while I pound another nail?  In everything I do, I try to do it for You, but I break in two the things that I get from You.  You're simply remarkable, simply wonderful, simply merciful.  Who can compare with You, Lord?

God Bless this Mess

Get me high on your clean needles, or trample the poor to appease my greed.  both sides simply have it  wrong, they're mistreating  the symptoms of an un-grasped disease.  And if anyone poses a question, they pass it off as personal freedom.  Freedom to harm, freedom to lust, freedom to kill our only children.   God bless America, that sounds good to me.  It will take the one true God above to save us from this misery.  God bless America, but he wants you to change.  Don't stick Him in your pocket until His chance on Sunday.  Here everyone is so concerned with their freedom of choice.  How many did you kill last year that never got to use their voice?  At a god, they'll smile, but at Jesus Christ they moan.  They want a god with politics, so they'll create their own.  Bless this mess.  I hope it is not too late.  Is America the "late great"?  Love it or leave it, that is what you've said.  It wasn't for american pride that my dear Jesus bled.  He did not die for politics or fame.  He  died for the people so they could find the way.  Love it or leave it, that's what you've said to me.  I am  tired of explaining that this is not how it should be.  Yeah, here we're free, and here we are blessed, but none of us is truly free while the rest are oppressed.  This is what Your freedom means to me; Your freedom is the only one that's free.

This song is for you.

You're not so happy now. Not so happy now, are you? Everything "meant to be" is broken and the shards are cutting.  The blood-it flows so freely if you don't mind the smell.  You're sure they can't hurt you if you're wrapped up in hurting yourself.  This is the night that you give into darkness. The nightlight is out, there is no smile upon us.  If you free your veins then will you free the pain? Only one way to know for sure.  Picture a fading flame and you have a portrait of us. The sun will blind your eyes so you just stay inside.  You say "It's only hiding if someone is looking for me." Your sheets are your blindfold, you'll never know when it happens.  It has happened.  You aren't so happy now, not so happy are you?  Everything meant to be is broken; use the shards for cutting.  The blood, it flows so freely if you don't mind the pain, but  pain means security as it passes down the drain.  Is this the night that you give into darkness?  The lamplight is on, there's no difference between us.  What is it that makes someone better than anyone else?  There is nothing.  For you, there's still something. So hold on for dear life, and for the sake of things to come.  He's reason enough to stay sober.  Reason enough to stay alive. He is what keeps me from bleeding when everything hurts inside.

Take My Hand

Right now I would like to understand what you meant by those words you said that December night. I know when I look into your eyes that you will wait for me and I will wait for you. It seems like you have always been there for me. I will try my best to be there for you. Take my hand, I won't let you fall, remember when I held you close. I can't forget those things that we shared. You mean the world, you mean the world to me. I stand here staring out my window and I wonder where you are. I remember the light that was in your eyes when we first met. It seems like you have always been there for me. I will try my best to be there for you. Take my hand I won't let you fall. Remember when I held you close. I can't forget those things that we shared you mean the world to me. Time goes on as they say, we're not promised another day. I'll wait forever if that's what it takes. I'll wait forever because you are worth the wait. Until then...

Superman Sleeping

Get up at two, then go back to bed. Morning is overrated anyway. Crazy thoughts running through my head, it doesn't matter who I am. Sleep through the day, sleep through the night, same old story day after day. Wake up again...I hate it when I lose 3 days to an afternoon nap. well, in my dreams, I'm Superman, and I've got to save the world! Who has time for school or work? Who has time for anything at all? I don't mind if you ask sometimes, if you'll just go away. 'Cause in my dreams I'm Superman and I have to save the world!

Oscillating Fan (fist of death)

I can't think of one reason not to kill you.  My homicidal tendencies are flaring up.  Maybe I just feel that I need to brake your legs but your girlfriend says I should not.  Sometimes you make me want to kick your face in, but I won't because we're friends.  Sometimes you make me want to spoon your eyes out, but I can't because we're friends to the end. You said.  At times, things can slide out of control but you know I don't really want to maim you.  But then you go and make me mad so never mind, I vomit on your shoes,  you can die!  And even though I may only be kidding, someone will take this to heart.  Even though we all know I'm joking, someone will take this to heart.